Making A Lateral Move


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Hey Readers! I know, please don’t be mad. I’ve got a really valuable reason for my disappearance! Okay, here it goes. I have been working very hard at my new job. I must admit I thought that it was a normal call center job, but after the meeting a had today with a fellow co-worker. I beg to differ. You see, Ed’s story really resonated with me that I thought I’d share it. He talked about his tenure with the company and how he enjoys people. I wrote notes as I was in the meeting and he made a BOLD statement that really hit home. He said (I’m paraphrasing), ” You can be a fool, but not for too long.” I got to thinking about my career choices and aspirations of what I want to do in life. Now, I know you’ve read a million times about how much I love to write and do research, and I want to do just that in a corporate setting. My current position is in a corporate office. Although, I am not a fan of the phones, I will be until my time is up.  I’ve made the decision to want to stay with the company, I work for but make a lateral move to do what my heart desires. In some way I am going to be the one to tell GREAT stories!

I was talking to my boss today about my career aspirations. I know it will take some time ( I will try to be patient), but he loved my enthusiasm of what I want to do. Realizing my purpose and experiencing the different stories I hear at work, I will say I finally feel like I know my purpose which is to create by using the written word. George Bernard Shaw said, ” Be the change that you want to see.” I am trying to focus on just that. It doesn’t involve just change in my professional life, but personal, too. With all of the education that I have, I don’t want to feel like it’s going to waste and I’m in debt for nothing. Does anyone else feel that way sometimes? I mean, I have a doctorate in educational psych, but I work in a corporate organization. But, I believe that my skills can be used no matter what I decide to pursue.

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I will always write creatively with my books and screenplays. Speaking of since I’ve started my new job  I have not written a thing! Can you believe it? Getting used to this new schedule ( it’s only a 9-5), but I get up early and arrive at work an hour early before my shift everyday. My routine is to sit in my car and spend some time with the Lord and talk to my friends then head in and get my desk ready for the day.  Some may think that is a bit much, but I was taught, the early bird gets the worm. Even if I’m not a morning person, lol. Well, this is all for now, I will be back soon. I appreciate all of my new followers who have subscribed to my blog recently. You’re awesome. Continue to be the great people that you are. Talk soon!

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My Week In A Nutshell


Hey Readers!

Happy Saturday, to you! Boy, this week has been something else! I mean it was eventful, but stressful as well. I started a new job and although I’m grateful, I started to feel like I was taking steps backwards. Don’t get me wrong the pay is amazing, but the content of the position is like ugh. Working in a call center at a bank is daunting, but rewarding. I know you maybe thinking, ” Krystol, what are you talking about?” Let me vent and express my feelings. We all know that writing is my passion and life. It’s what I want to do, so taking a job to work in yet another call center is where I feel like I’m backwards. But, I am praying that I change my mindset for Monday. It’s the first day we get on the phones and my anxiety is through the roof. Now, I know you maybe thinking again, ” Krystol, this isn’t your first call center job.” I know, but the system is new and it seems like I’m solving a jigsaw puzzle.

But, did I also mention that this job isn’t the DREAM job. Granted, I am sure everyone feels that way working there, but ugh! We gotta start somewhere, right? Of course, I consulted and sulked to my mom who said, ” Never stop applying for the dream job, but be grateful for the one you have.” It’s easier said than done. I mean, this week I had a great first day, then it kind of went down hill. I don’t fit in with the other workers ( not that I have to) and all of a sudden the thought of being on the phones is annoying to me, lol. I feel like I didn’t go to school and get all of these degrees to work in a call center and talk on the phone all day.

New Idea, Need YOUR advice

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I’ve had this idea for a while of starting my own column. I want to call it, ” Krystol Speaks” where people ask me advice on writing, their situations, and more. When I used yo write for a magazine, I pitched it to the CEO and she didn’t like it. So, they say, ” When you want something done, you have to do it yourself.” I want to do just that. What do you guys think? Would you read it or care to ask my advice? My goal is to get a domain name for this blog and write on Krystol Speaks about three times a week. Hopefully, I can create a job by sharing it with future employers like NewYork Times or even Huffington Post, or anywhere. Then goal is to write for a living. If you think I should go with it, thanks for your support. If not, that’s okay, I will still do it anyway, lol.

Setting Priorities When It Comes To Your Dreams


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Happy Sunday, Readers!

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There comes a time in your life when you must say enough is enough. My grandmother used to always say, ” Eventually you will get tired.” She said that for a lot of things and I never knew what she meant. It seemed like that statement went with every reference of life from being unhappy, not liking to do certain tasks, etc. As I was driving today thinking about another motivational video I watched, it hit me. My grandmother meant that eventually I would be tired of not being my happiest or truest self whether it involves other people or not. It got me thinking about my topics as of like dreams, success and being your best self.  I have decided that I am tired of living for others. For example,  some people think you should live your life in a way is THEIR norm. Work a normal job, get paid a normal paycheck and live a normal life. But, makes your normal different from someone else’s? Your normal is probably totally different from mine. Some people are content and happy working with a company for 30+ years, owning their home and retiring. This is one way that society has taught us to live. But, for me, what’s normal to society isn’t for me. I get bored easily ( hence the many jobs I’ve had), but I feel like this I won’t know what I like or don’t like if I don’t explore and try new things.

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I’ve come to the conclusion where I am tired of society’s opinion for my life through other people. I’ve said all week that I want to be a writer. I’m talented in it, it’s something I would do for free and still be happy with it. I enjoy writing in many different genres ,which not only keeps me out of a bubble, but I’m versatile as well. I learn to write in different areas so I can adapt to change as it comes with writing. When it comes to my life, I have to check myself and get MY priorities in order. The thoughts and opinions of other people no longer matter. I no longer seek advice from others who don’t have my same aspirations at heart. Why? They have no clue the drive and determination I have to really make it. You can have some of the best people in your life that you love and love you to an extent become your biggest downfall. We as people seek validation ( why I have no clue), but we do and we want others to tell us what’s right or wrong, or what would or wouldn’t they do. Fuck that shit! I can’t ask questions like that anymore because they aren’t me and I am not them. Our mindsets are totally different. My mother just told me today, ” If you listen to what people say, you will never go anywhere or do anything.” That advice was paramount because it was so on time for where I’m headed in life and where I am now on my new journey to being my best self and living my dreams. I know you must be asking, just what are these alleged priorities?

  1. Keep God First
  2. Take every job position as a learning experience, which will prepare me for my writing job
  3. Continue to study the craft of writing and READ as many books, articles, and blogs as I can
  4. Continue applying for ALL writing jobs until the perfect one happens.
  5. Remain Humble. I have to carry the crown before I wear it by paying my dues and starting from the bottom if I have to.
  6. Write everyday no matter what.
  7. Become 2 Corinthians 13

To Thine Own Self Be True 

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Following Your Dreams: Nature or Nurture?


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Lately, I have been watching a lot of Ted Talks and YouTube videos on how one finds their purpose and lives their fullest life. We are told at an early age in life that you can be whatever you want to be. In some ways I think this is true, but what happens when fear gets in the way of your dream. If you are like me there has been SEVERAL times where I had a lot of dreams or goals that I wanted to accomplish. I started to write when I was about 13 years old. First it was poetry, then I essay and I soon graduated to short stories and full on novels. It was a talent that I realized I had. I was someone who could tell amazing stories through words. Pretty fascinating stuff, right? When I turned 18, my dream was to be a nurse. I wanted to help people heal and get better. My mother went to school for nursing and I was inspired by her drive. It was short-lived because addiction became her focus. Then, I realized nursing wasn’t the way to go. Don’t get me wrong, I tried, I went to community college and took an anatomy and physiology class. It scared the crap out of me to learn that I had to memorize every bone in the body. That’s a lot of bones. I panicked and asked my mom for help. Not only did she know all of the bones, but she knew what bone helped what. Clearly, that was her dream and not mine. Then, later on I wanted to be a shrink. I was always told that I give great advice and that I was a trust worthy person. My mind was focused and I was a great listener. One of my professor’s  Ms. Brisel taught psychology 101 in a way that I had become fascinated and knew I was getting into the right field. So, what did I do? I got a bachelor’s degree in Behavioral Science. Guess, what? Til this day I STILL don’t use it. I tried to find a job in that field, without experience, no one will give me a shot.

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Now, I’m about 23 years old and I feel like the biggest failure known to man. I went to college, got the degree and couldn’t find a job in the field. My mind was starting to play tricks on me telling me I’m stupid and that I wasted money on a useless degree. I believed it. So, I did what any other person would do who was trying to find their way, I went back to school. First, I majored in Master’s in Social Work. I’m like yes, I am going to be a counselor! This is my time to shine and help people. Within the middle of the first semester, I put on academic probation and was flunking out. I had never told anyone that, until now. My life as I knew was in shambles. I had been a professional student for so long that I wasn’t able to find a secure job. Oh, did I mention I had just moved to North Carolina on a wing and a prayer? I had about eight thousand dollars saved and me and my friend just left. I wasn’t getting a job in Delaware so I figured I’d try my shot somewhere else. Somewhere where I wasn’t reminded of my failures within myself, my family, the friends I thought I had, the men that disappointed in life. I needed out. When the advisor told me I was flunking out of graduate school, I didn’t want to quit. I mean, I didn’t want to keep that major, but I didn’t want to quit. There I was sitting in my new 2 bedroom town house with no furniture or food, just electric, I started to write a new book, which was my third book. I did some research on new schools and found FullSail University. It was a film school that was located in Florida and I could go online. The options for majors were very long and then it found me. What was a release for me majority of my life was sitting there, it was creative writing.  I could get my MFA in Creative Writing. It was still my Master’s degree and I was still in school! Woo hoo! The phone meeting with an enrollment counselor went great. The program was for a year and I would be finished. The following year I had my Master’s in Creative Writing. Due to money issues, I was unable to go to the graduation, but I still passed. I learned to write everything, films, games, TV Pilot, Animation. I graduated with a 3.5.

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Although I got my Master’s I still wasn’t able to find a job in the field. It seemed I had to relocate to California or New York in order to write. My advisor told I didn’t have to move, but yet, I still wasn’t finding THE job I wanted. I wanted to write for a company or network. But, in all honesty, I wasn’t able to find my niche. It’s that way still. I’m so versatile in my writing that I can’t stick to one genre. But, then again, why should I? I’ve dabbled in journalism, magazines, blogs and even proposals.

Now, it’s 2018 and I’m still not writing  for a company or network. I’m still trying to find my niche. But, in between that I’ve written several books and ghost wrote a few as well. I have written many screenplays, treatments for shows and TV Pilots. It’s all in what I call (the vault), saved on my computer and USB drive. I won’t give up. My dream is to work as a writer of some sort and I will do just that. Monday I start a new job working as a customer solutions specialist. I’m going to be the best employee that I can be until it’s time to work that dream job.

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As I was thinking about my topic for today I thought about something DeVon Franklin said his book that I’m reading, ” The Hollywood Commandments A Spiritual Guide To Secular Success.” He said, ” You have to be able to carry the crown, before you can wear one.” It resonated with me because he talked about who he wanted to work in entertainment and every job that he had before he got his dream job and eventually starting his own company, prepared him to be where he is now in his life.  I believe this job I’m starting on Monday will do the same as well. Now, even though I am starting a different job, I still applied for writing jobs everywhere. I am thankful for my new job and I will serve there to the best of my ability. Who knows, I may even get to be a technical writer at my company, if something else doesn’t come along. DeVon states, ” you have to realize that you must start at the bottom in order to make it to the top. ” Or one must pay their dues. Another mentor that I’m following is Evan Michael and Laura Berman Fortgang. Evan said, ” Explore your options and find out what your purpose isn’t or what you like doing. It can only happen with experience.” He talked about trying snow boarding, salsa dancing and really enjoyed it. He said you won’t know what you don’t like to do if you don’t try it. It’s okay to explore because your purpose will find you. The bible says, ” Your gift will make room for you.” I wholeheartedly believe that. Laura said, ” A lot of people have a lot of ambition based on what they don’t want to be in their life i. e  their parents, a statistic.”  Career satisfaction doesn’t come from what you do, it comes from who you get to be while doing it. The beauty is who you get to be is the real you.”  The more I read these books by DeVon Franklin and watch videos like Evan Carmichael and Laura Fortgang, I realize that I am where I am supposed to be right now and I will be a writer because it is what I want to do. Dreams are what you make them to be. Some are born with them knowing what they want to do and some are learned by life’s experience. Is your dream nature or nurture?

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Making Time To Read


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Oftentimes I am a mood reader. I read when I feel like it, but lately, I’ve been feeling guilty for NOT reading. As some of you may know I’m a writer and with that comes reading. At least it should, right? My book tube channel has taken a back seat in terms of why I made the channel. I explored my options and wanted to do what was ” popular” like mukbangs and going live. Well, the going live part is fun because I get to know my subscribers and we always have a good time. But, on this day I have decided to dedicate my channel to reading and writing again.  I came across a channel today and it really inspired me. Her channel name is Harriet Rosie. She’s pretty cool and I’m so inspired by her and Andy from It’s A Reading Thing. Please check them out!

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My goals with reading and writing is to stop the procrastination and become more reliable and follow through on my to-do list that I’ve made for myself in my planner. If you have any other ideas on how to keep this going please feel free to let me know. I joined a Facebook group called Bookish Stars where myself and other creatives get together and talk books! I am so excited to be a part of this group and pray that I am able to be consistent in it as well.

Current Reads

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I am only on chapter 2 of this book and I am LOVING it! Oh my God. It is already teaching me so much about myself and my dreams aspirations and how to go about them.

Synopsis:

You can be wildly successful without losing your faith. In fact, your secular success will strengthen your faith if you allow it. Too often we believe that success in secular environments contradicts the core principles of faith, but the opposite is true: Your faith was designed to thrive in the secular world and to transform it as a result. You may never experience the true fulfillment you were created for until you pursue the secular ambitions in your heart.

New York Times bestselling author DeVon Franklin knows this to be true. In The Hollywood Commandments, the prominent Hollywood producer and spiritual success coach reveals 10 life-changing lessons picked-up from his over-twenty-year career in the entertainment business. You won’t learn these lessons in the church yet they will help you achieve an amazing life and thriving career that glorifies God. The Hollywood Commandments will help you:

• Identify how to use what makes you unique to propel your career.
• Overcome fear and build the courage to pursue new opportunities waiting for you.
• Gain the confidence to make important life decisions with greater peace and clarity.
• Negotiate the life and career advancement you deserve.

No, you don’t have to work in Hollywood for this book to work for you, these “commandments” apply to every walk of life! If you are stuck, looking for the secrets to advance your career, or have a feeling there’s more to life, this book is for you

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I am going to start this book today! I am so excited because it is the last book in this series and I MUST see how Evie O’Neil is going to do with these deaths. This book is a suspense/super natural type book that is everything.

Synopsis:

After battling a supernatural sleeping sickness that early claimed two of their own, the Diviners have had enough of lies. They’re more determined than ever to uncover the mystery behind their extraordinary powers, even as they face off against an all-new terror. Out on Ward’s Island, far from the city’s bustle, sits a mental hospital haunted by the lost souls of people long forgotten–ghosts who have unusual and dangerous ties to the man in the stovepipe hat, also known as the King of Crows.

With terrible accounts of murder and possession flooding in from all over, and New York City on the verge of panic, the Diviners must band together and brave the sinister ghosts invading the asylum, a fight that will bring them fact-to-face with the King of Crows. But as the explosive secrets of the past come to light, loyalties and friendships will be tested, love will hang in the balance, and the Diviners will question all that they’ve ever known. All the while, malevolent forces gather from every corner in a battle for the very soul of a nation–a fight that could claim the Diviners themselves.

 

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Who Are You?


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Lately I have been thinking a lot about this. As I’m reading a current book titled, ”  The Hollywood Commandments A Spiritual Guide To Secular Success and watching a few of Evan Carmichael’s videos this has my mind pondering. Who am I? Sure, I am a girl, a writer, a daughter, an aunt and sister, but deep down who am I really? My grandmother once told me that a person in their 30’s should know who they are. Yet, I feel like I am still trying to find myself.  I was recently diagnosed with cirrhosis and it has me thinking a lot about life. Am I happy where my life is right now? The more I dwell I am not. i was watching this video that Evan Carmichael had on finding your purpose. One of the exercises that he mentioned was to make a list of things that you would do if you were a millionaire or only had one week to live. Of course the living part really caught attention.   If you don’t mind, I want to share my list with you guys. If money wasn’t an option and I was living on ” borrowed” time these are what would fulfill my life.

 

  1. Become a New York Times Bestselling Author
  2. Make one of my movies and have it on a network
  3. See one of my Pilots on screen and even picked up
  4. Write for TV
  5. Live in a warm climate
  6. Have the world enjoy my stories on and off screen.
  7. Become a mother
  8. Work as a Researcher

All of these things have one major thing in common. Can you SEE what it is? If you haven’t guessed it, it’s WRITING. It’s being a writer! Writing is something that I would do all day long and for free and still be happy. But, then I ask myself, why haven’t I been writing? The stress of everyday living has started to take the joy of just jotting things down and finishing projects away from me. I’m not happy with my job, it’s not brining me joy, I’m afraid of my health and dying. So many things that hold me back from really going after the dream. The fear is called THE DEVIL. He’s busy and I have to continue to not be here for it. Ignore  the voice in my head that tells me it won’t happen, it’s a long shot or  think if I will fail. Failure isn’t an option. I choose to live and not just exist, I chose life over death.

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There are so many battles that people have in their lives, mostly with their self. We are human. It’s okay to be afraid, but we can’t give in to the fear. We must be risk takers. I was applying for a lot of jobs ( even though I’m starting a new one) where I am able to utilize my writing and research skills in some way, but not where my heart lies. Granted, I know the bills have to be paid and sometimes you have to do what you have to do and not want to do. But, where does that leave me? Sure, I can still write until I make it, I mean, that is what I plan to do. My goal is to not loose focus on the writing when life happens. Life clouds my judgement and it has really been getting to me lately. There are so many projects that I need to finish it’s not even funny. I had made a post on Facebook where I stated I was going to finish writing a film. I re-read what I wrote and then closed the computer. I keep asking myself, ” who are you?” I am a writer who will keep writing until her dreams come true no matter the obstacles. To my readers, who are you?

No Excuse


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Wow! What can I say? There has been a lot going on lately which has caused me not to blog in months. I am not going to make excuses, but I feel i need to explain something to my readers. Things have been going very well and not so well. First, I got a new job working as a collector, then I was offered another position working in a bank. I start that job soon and I’m very excited and anxious about it. But, I am always this way with new things so I am trying to calm my anxiety. Another great thing that has happened is that I bought my first car! Yes, I am super excited and I’m also having anxiety about that too! I know, Krystol get a grip. My dad says I’m reading too much into it. He was like,” Krystol, you are not the only person that is driving so it’s okay. Just keep driving.” I mean, he does have a point, but its still like ahhhh, Nerve wracking! Nonetheless, I am happy that I can come and go as I please.

My writing and reading has definitely taken a back seat with everything. At my previous job I was working 10 hours a day and because I was still taking the bus, it took me 2 hours to get to work each day to and from. I was exhausted.  My reading and writing really suffered. Now, I am trying to get back into it. I have a couple of book reviews to post, but this is my current read.

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Lately I have been feeling a little lost in terms of being stable in a career. I’ve always worked jobs and have not been happy. The dream job is to be a writer and write for a company or network, while still writing my novels. I just need that big break! Recently, ( like a few days ago), I got some inspiration with writing films again. A friend from my mom’s church took me to see a Christian film titled, ” I Can’t Imagine” and it was amazing! It turns out that I know the writer of the movie! I went to a seminar he was giving at the film school I graduated from. Pretty cool, right? I was so excited and so happy as I was watching the credits. That is my goal to see my name on the screen.

I Can Do It

While working this job at the bank, I am going to keep writing and trying to get my writing out there the best way that I can. I will always have hope that my dreams will come true. On another note, my health has been giving me issues. My diabetes is controlled, however, I was diagnosed with Cirrhosis yesterday. It tore me up inside as my doctor was giving me results. Why couldn’t I just have a cold or a fever? I’m still doing my research, but the gist is that my liver isn’t working as well as it should. Can this be overturned? Yes,  I have to loose weight and exercise. I have been trying to eat better. The exercising is hard for me because I’m a not motivated to do it. But, now I have to, so once the snow clears I am signing up for the gym. This is something that I really have to commit to because I’m high risk for liver cancer. I CANNOT have that. I want to have children one day. I’m sorry that I haven’t made a post in a while, it is just sometimes life happens. But, with God on my side, I will prevail. I have no choice to. I will make an effort to post more often. It is a nor’easter where I am so I am going to have today be a reading and movie day. I hope everyone has a great day and stay safe!

NanoWriMo, It’s A Wrap!


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I know that you didn’t expect me to finish Nano so early. To be honest, I didn’t expect to finish either. But, let me first say that when Nov.1st came, I already had about 10 thousand words already on my project. I didn’t want to have slow days where I would slack off not write. So, you must be asking, how did you write 40k, in 10 days?  Here are some tips that helped me.

  1. Make Friends – This might sound silly, but it really helped me. I joined a lot of Facebook writing groups and even found YouTubers who were doing Nano also. We made our videos where we talked about our projects. We followed each other on our own social medias and stayed in touch.
  2. Word Sprints – I did a lot of word sprints via twitter, the nano-website and on other writer’s live streams on YouTube. This was fun because I wasn’t alone. We all had the same goal and that was to write. We talked about our stories and even got ideas from one another.
  3. Set a goal- The first few days I was hitting the normal minimum target of 1,667 a day. Then I changed myself to write 2k a day then bumped it up to 5k a day. I know you must be thinking, “Krystol, you are crazy”, I thought I was. But, I had the extra time in the morning since I’m not working right now. I wrote 2,500 words in the morning and then 2,500 in the evening. Some of my writer friends working in the mornings and at night, so I would sprint with them before they went to work.
  4. Read the e-mails from authors on NanoWrio- This kept me encouraged when I was just tired of writing some days. One that really spoke out to me was Dean Koontz. He gave us ( writers) advice on how not to accept no or follow other’s people rules. He gave the example of his agent not wanting to pitch a book that ending up selling millions of copies.

I know that it is still early in the month and some of you are still writing. I want to encourage you to keep going and not dwell on the word count, but to have fun writing the story. My story ended up being 50,089 words. I am going to publish it in about two weeks. I must say that I am very excited. I was going to wait until February, but I am going to put it out sooner. I hope that my subscribers purchase my psychological thriller and enjoy the read. Below is the cover and synopsis.

Synopsis:

Artie Leigh was never the popular guy. He was teased mercilessly for being different. It wasn’t until he made a YouTube channel that he found his place. Artie stumbled upon a channel by a girl named Kaylee St. James and subscribed. They became internet friends, and she made him a moderator for her channel. Kaylee was only interested in running her channel professionally, but Artie saw her as something more, something special. Artie was determined to win her heart and use his charm. Things were looking up for Artie. He had a place that he belonged and made friends in the online community. Artie had an opportunity to go to a meet and greet in London where he could finally meet Kaylee and her subscribers. But something unexpected happened on the trip that drove Artie a little over the edge. Will he be able to make Kaylee see his true feelings for her, or will she refuse him and kick him out of her life, forever?

 

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Switched My NanoWriMo Project


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Happy Day 1 Nano Wrimers! I hope you are so happy to be starting this journey as I am. I switched my project and I’m now writing a psychological thriller called ” The Moderator”  which is about an obsessed YouTuber who stalks someone that he is subscribed to. This book will have great twists and turns! There may even be some things that you recognize if you have a channel of your own. Check out my unedited snippet of what’s to come.

 

***DISCLAIMER THE FOLLOWING WRITING PIECE HAS BEEN COPYRIGHTED***   

Copyright © 2017 by Krystol Diggs 

 This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental

The Moderator

A Novel by Krystol

Prelude

I was tired of him always talking about me. Sure, I knew he wasn’t in my state and could not hurt me, but he was always talking trash on YouTube. Sure he was good looking, at least he looked better than me. I hate my looks. My curly black hair  and my coke bottle glasses is my daily nightmare. I never had a girlfriend before because I was teased. But, then there she was. She was just my type, chocolate, beautiful smile and the way she walked  away from the camera made me want to subscribe right away. I wanted to instantly talk to her until I saw him. He was there, entertaining and taking over the conversation. The chat room was very busy on this day and I could not wait to get my turn to ask her a question. I sat on my bed with my ear plugs as she talked about her favorite book. I don’t really read books, but she said she liked Stephen King. I checked out every book that rolled off her pretty pink tongue. The more  she talked, I just watched her. Sometimes she moved forward to read what was being said. As she leaned in her computer, I leaned in mine.

“ So, Kaylee, what are you having for dinner tonight?” He asked.

I rolled my eyes.

“ Geez, this British prick will not stop typing!” I yelled.

“ Oh, Jackson. I am not sure. Maybe some lamb or lobster.” She responded.

I smiled as she talked. Lobster was my favorite. This had me excited. We had something in common. I knew that this was a good thing. Kaylee was going to be mine and mine only. I had to stop this Jackson character first.

***

Kaylee wasn’t on any of her social media sites. I had all of her IP addresses hacked from when I video chatted her the other day to talk about music. She told me what kind of music she liked and I made her a playlist. It was that easy. Her beauty did not captivate me too much only because I had a job to do. The more she talked, the easier it was for me to hack and get into her accounts. Once I did the job, now when she logged on, I was notified and able to access her messages and e-mails. Jackson e-mailed her almost daily and he was starting to piss me off. I mean after all, Kaylee is mine, not his. But, for some reason she feels safe around him.

Looking at flights, I had to get the best price for a round trip to London. I had to pay Jackson a visit. First, I wanted to scope the town out and see what it had to offer. After all, it is London. I had to get something for Kaylee since she is obsessed with the country. I have no idea why. London is crowded and filled with a bunch of people who try to show their uppity asses as important. But, whatever Kaylee wanted, Kaylee got.

“ Let’s see, American Airlines, South West, Delta. Which flight is cheaper for a one way?” I thought to myself.

There was a knock on the door. I did not hear it at first until she yelled at me.

“ Artie! Hey, Artie!”

I look over and see my mom in front of me waving her arms. I paused Kaylee’s video and took my head phones off.

“ Mom, what is it? I’m busy.” I said.

“ Artie, dinner is ready. And why can’t you clean your fucking room, you little shit!” She yelled at me.

I wanted to kill her. Ever since it was told to her that I had a learning disability and speech problem, she hated me.  It did not bother me much because the feeling was mutual. All she cared about was her rich husband.

“ I will eat when I get ready.  I know how to make leftovers.” I told her.

“ Alright, Artie. Suit yourself. Clean this room, it smells like death.” She said.

“ Mom. I am a an adult now.”

“ You are an adult in a child’s body. You will not amount to anything. Clean your fucking room, or I will take that computer.” She yelled.

I just looked at her as she slammed my door.

“ Fucking bitch!” I yelled at the door.

I took a deep breath and opened the laptop back up. She was still online and talking. Now it was my chance to say something.

“ Hey Kaylee. I like lobster too.” I said.

The butterflies started to swarm in my stomach like that they were flying all around. I never had been so excited to talk to someone in my life.

“ Hey Sellers. Lobster is so good right?”

My smile got even wider. She asked me a question. KayleeReads really spoke to me again.

“ I do like lobster. But, I like you even more.” I said.

I know that I was forward, but I wanted to make her day just as much as she made mine.

“ You are very sweet. Thanks, Sellers.”

The conversation continued between her and I. There were others in the room, but  I tuned them out. Kaylee and I were getting better acquainted.  Then it happened. It was the best day of my life. She said out loud,

“ Hey guys, I am looking for a couple moderators for my room. You know, to block out the trolls and bad people. Is anyone interested?”

I raised my hand in the chat.

“ Okay, Sellers! You got the job.” She said.

I raised my hand in the air to show my victory. I was ready, Jackson was first on my list. It is about to go down because I’m now Sellers, the moderator.

 Thanks so much for reading, I would love to get your feedback! Constructive Criticism only!! 

 

A Fresh Start


HappySaturdayTweety

Hey readers! Do you sometimes wish you could start over with your life and have fresh start? Well, you really can. Recently, I deleted a lot of people from my social media accounts and re-did my YouTube channel. I was just starting to think that some people were not really for me. Granted, I never expect to talk to everyone from my social media pages all the time, but I want purpose in my life. I started to go to church again and it is brining awareness of what and who are really for me.

De-cluttering my life has been very therapeutic as I take the time to continue to evolve and learn. My writing is even getting better with my newness or new me. Some people will not like my change, but it is not on my mind to wonder what people will think. A sense of peace has come over me once I decided that my life does not revolve around people’s thoughts and perception of me.

Anyway, this new start will bring on new opportunities with writing projects, jobs, and more. I am so excited to see what God and the universe has in store for me.  My fresh start will be now instead of the new year. This is exciting and I pray the momentum stays the way it is.