Can Rejections Ruin Your Confidence As A Writer?


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This Is Deep…

As a writer, it is hard for others to see your work the way that you do. I mean, how many no’s can we take? J. K. Rowling took a one too many no’s before she got her yes. I tweeted Angie Thomas, ( author of The Hate You Give) and she gave me some sound advice. She said, ” All you need is that one yes.” But, it seems with the more rejections we get as a writer, the less excited we feel that our yes will come. With writing, can the rejections ruin our confidence?

Okay…

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Growing up as children we all hated the word NO. So, it is only right that as an adult we still do not like the word, especially when it comes to something we think is so perfect like our writing. I will be honest, in my lifetime, I have given up on my writing abilities three times due to rejection. There was one time I was querying agents for a book and I did not understand why I was getting rejected. Once, I did my research the correct way and not listened to what other writers were telling me, I realized why. My stories were not aligned with the correct word count.

Once I realized my wrong doing, I self-published all of my books. For a while, the ,money was great, but after a while, the money stops. Then I felt like I had exhausted all possibilities to make money from this way. The more writing I was doing, the more I felt that I had to re-invent myself in some way. Now, I have a completed book that I want to be published the traditional route. The process of getting an agent is tough, but it will be worth it once I get my yes. This experience is damping my spirits just a bit, but I am not going to give up. I said to myself, ” My stories are not good and I am throwing in the towel.” Then, I had someone inbox me via social media and asked me when was my next book coming out. The message that the young lady sent me was HOPE. In that moment, I realized that I could not writing or telling stories. They were in me and it is my duty to share it with the world. Never give up, keep the confidence and the faith. You are a writer.

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Want A Paid Writing Gig?


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My fellow writers! I have a GEM for you! I know how we writers want to make a living writing or at least be appreciated for what we have to bring to the table, right? I came across this online paid magazine by networking right here on wordpress. I started to read other’s blogs and BOOM there it was! Yes, I am talking about this banner right here:

This is totally legit! I even signed a contract and met other writers for the magazine as well. This is a new magazine and I must say that I very excited to accept the position of a columnist! My areas of expertise will be for Bookish News and Reviews, Writer’s Life and Fashion & Beauty sections. I could not be more proud to be a part of a great magazine. If you have more questions please do hesitate to email the editor at EDITOR@CONSCIOUSTALKMAG.COM.

My Thoughts:

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If you look back on my  What’s On Your Writer’s Bucket List?  back in 2013, I stated that I wanted to write for a company. I did not specify what type of company because it could be anything. I have been a contributing writer for a few magazines, but never having my own column(s). This opportunity is so exciting for me. You have no idea. I want all of my writer friends to join in on this venture with me if you are interested and have the time.

You Are Not Your Struggle


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Happy Sunday!

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As I was reflecting and thinking about my life,  wondering where I want to be, this topic came to mind. There are many of us who are struggling, and feel like we don’t know where to turn or what to do with our lives. Trust me, I’ve been there and I’m still there.  Struggle doesn’t last always even though we fill it might. This can be affecting your personal, work, or even relationships with friends and family. Don’t allow it to get your down. The rapper T.I states, ” Tough situations don’t last, but tough people do.”   When I read his quote in an interview, I thought, ” He is so right! I am wallowing for nothing.”

The above picture reminds me of where I am and possible a lot of you are. You notice the man with the briefcase as he’s walking. He has a goal, somewhere to be! He’s not looking backward, even through his struggles are following him. He is still pressing on, so why can’t we? What is it about us as people that focus on not being where we want to be instead of appreciating where we are headed? This made me think! Here is what I came up with.

  1. Other Influences – We live in a society today where the media is booming with successful people. It is almost like successful people are throwing in our faces that we are not where we want to be. We focus on that and feel miserable. Well, not anymore! If we focus on what is important and just our goals, we will strive forward.
  2. Telling Our Goals –  Before you judge me with this one, please hear me out. Now, there is nothing wrong with telling someone who has their best interest for you about your goals. But, when you expose it to everyone, everyone does not have your best interest at hear. I know what you must be thinking, ” Who cares what people think?” Actually, some of us do. We as people need gratification and praises of other people, other wise we would do what we choose without having to tell anyone. My point is everything in our lives is not for everyone. Some people want to see us fail and not succeed sadly.
  3. Monitoring Others  – I used to focus on what my friends and other people that I knew was doing. I was envious of their success and them doing things that I wanted to do like travel, write for a major corporation, even down to marriage and children. Focusing on them was taking me off my square for me to be happy. Don’t allow this to happen. Be happy for your friends and associates. Your time will come. When it comes, it maybe even better than what others had going on.

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It’s been said by many people that our struggle is what keeps us going. People are often stagnant when they are comfortable. Could their be truth to this? I think it depends on how bad the person wants to be their best selves. The picture above really captivated and resonated with me because the ball in chain is holding him back, but he is moving through this struggle. It’s almost as if his struggle is keeping him coming. Being able to move on says a lot about your character. Don’t sweat the small stuff and I know it maybe hard, but try no to worry about things that are out of your control. Life is too short. Work with your struggle, do not become your struggle.

Dream Deferred


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At times in life, our life shifts into different directions that are out of our control. Today I experienced a shift that totally not only knocked me off my feet, but again the wall so hard that I can’t move. Trying to find a job in the writing and research field is hard enough ( hell, a job period), but finding out that you can no longer get the education to continue to try to be on the way of success is a hard blow. I found out that I can’t finish pursuing my PhD. On this blog, I like to keep it real with my readers and give it to you straight no chaser. I know that set backs and things happen. I also know that it’s not the end of the world and I will be able to finish, but right now, in this moment, I feel like someone has taken my air supply for me to breathe. Due to financial reasons, I am unable to finish school at the moment. I know that many have been where I am, and even more have experienced this same situation, but this is my current reality. The reality that I feel like I’ve failed. Parents raise their children to follow the directions, law and get a good education. I have done all of that and yet it seems like it was for nothing. Being a PhD student has taught me a lot about myself and to endure patience in the inevitable. Even though I only have 3 classes until I start writing my dissertation, I guess patience is something I still have to endure before I am able to go back to school. Ah, the irony!

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Not working in a field or job that is tolerable is the worst kind of agony that I don’t wish on anymore. At first it’s like, ” Okay, I’m going to be fine. I have a savings that will hold me for a while.” Then it turns to, ” Holy shit! I’m out of money, what am I going to do?” The unthinkable of not wanting to feel even more like a failure or lame you turn to those parents who taught you how to make it on your own and tell them not only have you failed, but school is deferred. It’s something like a hard blow to the head on the way down to the floor. Now, I’ve never been hit in the head, but I can imagine the pain that comes with it. I know some of you may be thinking, ” It’s not the end of the world, you will go back when you get the funds.” I hope that does happen. Its just an initial shock. I’m still struggling to find work and I’m no longer in school. I have to take a leave of absence for a while just until things change.

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This is currently how I’m feeling. Determine what the next step is for my life, if there is a next step to take. Im doing all I can by applying for jobs everywhere on a daily basis. My dream of successful writer is still in the works because I am writing or at least I will be. I opened up a manuscript that I had started and read it. It’s a love story and yet I just keep staring at the chapter 3 mark. We will not even go there in the relationship department. Granted, I want to be happy and have a successful relationship that will lead to marriage, but right now I don’t know if I’m coming or going. I just keep asking myself, ” Why do good people get the shittiest hands in life?” I understand the concept of life happening and things are never perfect, but it’s like every time you turn around it’s always something. Well, I think I’m done turning. What can happen if I stand still? Oh yea, nothing, lol. At least if I’m turning, I’m moving, right? Prayer has been my best friend and my journal has been my right hand. In due time I will have a good job and school will resume. The dream is not put off, it’s just a dream deferred.

Excerpt: I’m Your Angel By Krystol


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Coming in August of  2017

Here is an (unedited except)  of my next project. Feel free to give feedback in the comments!

 

“ Angel! I can’t do this with you right now.” I yelled as he was driving through old Baltimore Pike.

“ Miracle, I told you that I was sorry. How many times are you going to continue to punish me?” He yelled back.

The snow was coming down hard and he was speeding. I was scared and my heart started to panic.

“ You had her pussy smell all over you!” I barked back.

“ Mamita, I don’t want us to get a divorce. I am going to get help.” He said.

“ Angel, you had the last time. Just tell me how many more did you fuck?”

“ Miracle, it was just the two times and that was it. I love you and I’m committed to you.” He retorted.

“ How are you committed to me when you fucking cheated twice. We aren’t in high school anymore, Angel.”

I started to cry.

He hated when I cried.

We stopped at a red light and I looked out the window at the Christmas lights. Christtmas was my favorite holiday of the year.

“ Look. I love you. We are not getting divorced. This marriage is going to work and it’s going to last. We had vows, Miracle.”

“ Vows that you broke. Just tell me why? Is it because I work so much?”

“ No. Baby.”

He sighed.

“ She came on to me in the office. I told her I was happily married. We had the Christmas party last year and both were too drunk to drive. She kissed me. I called her Miracle and she played along with it.”

Tears started to roll my down my eyes even harder.

“ Since you were drunk the first time, how the fuck did it happen again?”

This go round I was furious. I wanted to grab the wheel and make him feel the same pain that I am, but I couldn’t kill us.

“ Miracle. Please calm down. I don’t want your asthma to act up.” He said trying to hold my hand.

“ Fuck you and your damn asthma.” I yelled.

“ Please stop crying.” He said as tears started to stream down his eyes.

“ We don’t need this shit.” I said.

“ Who the fuck is we?”

Cars started to pile up behind us and were blowing the horn.

“ Angel, I’m pregnant!”

Before I could say anything he stared at me and his foot hit the gas on the car.

“ Angel, look out!” I screamed.

I could hear the crash, but after that it all went black.

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Stephen King ( my favorite author)

Thoughts and Tips: I wrote this prelude with the thought of NEEDING a dramatic beginning in order to grab my readers attention. I hope I did a good job. My style of writing is to always have a problem with a solution. I like to write about things that people can relate. My love is YA then Adult or New Adult as some readers may say. The names Miracle and Angel came to me because I used to have a big crush on someone and I always called him my angel. He never knew that, but it always stuck with me. I look forward to see what Angel and Miracle are going to become. Do you?

 

Promoting My Latest Book


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I had a story to tell and I was told to tell this story. So, here it goes! I noticed that my writing style was shifting about 4 years ago. I was reading more Stephen King and different psychological thriller books. Before you knew it, I was hooked! Yes, I had to try my hand  at another psychological thriller. Trapped is a book that will take you to a different place in life. We met Candice who  is a girl trying to live her life and want the best of it. Her parents  look like the part, but at home, it’s a different story. Being an only child, most kids needs attention or someone to play with. Candice had that in her best friend Damon. At home, things were SO rocky because Candice was dealing with a great deal of physical and emotional abuse that it took her emotions to a different place. Have you ever in life wanted bad things to stop so that good can come in and do damage in the best way?  Candice archives just that! Well, sort of.

I really enjoyed writing Trapped because I was able to have a different story to tell. In life we want to win so bad that we will do anything to make it happen. At times I was Candice. I know what’s it like to want love from someone and they don’t see your existence or choose to not go there for whatever reason. But, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Readers who love the written word, if you are into psychological thrillers, give this one a try.

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Synopsis:

Nineteen years old, psychology major, Candice Hertz worked hard on her studies. After losing her father to cancer, Candice decides therapy would help with her loss. The therapy session turned into a nightmare. While reliving her past, Candice recalls the traumatic experience of being physically abused by her father at age twelve. Unable to deal with the memories, Danielle, another memory appears and become who Candice can’t. Danielle becomes Candice’s vehicle for revenge on those who caused her pain. Will Candice be cured from Multiple Personality Disorder or will she remain trapped with Danielle forever.

Pages: 314 pages

Copies: Paperback and Kindle

About The Author:

Krystol Diggs, the award winning published author & writer for multiple news & magazine outlets, has captured the attention of readers around the world with her thrilling & captivating stories of love, loss, and life. Krystol, of The Krystol Meth(od) has written numerous books & screenplays, including “Through Her Eyes”, her first book published in 2008, and “If It Ain’t Broke, Don’t Fix It”, a screenplay that won 2nd place in the Buffalo Niagara Film Festival Screenwriting Competition in 2014. You can find Krystol in 2015 getting her Ph.D in Educational Psychology at Walden University, highlighting as a Reporter for CNN iReport and releasing another published book titled “Trapped” and adapting a property for the producer of the film ” I DO, I DID”, Cherie Johnson.

Purchase:

https://www.amazon.com/Trapped-Krystol/dp/1503350681/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1486353848&sr=8-2&keywords=Krystol

Unprofessionalism


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Happy Sunday, readers! Did everyone have a great day? I know the game was on so I hope your team won and if you betted, I hope they paid up with NO excuses. I was sitting here thinking about how a few clients have been treating me lately. Unprofessional!! With the new year, I promised that I would be positive, but I had to address this. Unprofessionalism is something that I will no longer tolerate.

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This has become the biggest pet peeve to me so far in the new year. I am usually the passive one and I’m like, ” oh okay, that’s fine.” But, I have to be more aggressive. When it comes to trying to have a writing career and offering writing services, a back bone must in place. It does not matter what it is if it’s someone is supposed to call you back and you hear from them 3 days later, that is unacceptable. People only do what you allow. Never let anyone to be able to make it seem like you need them when they came to you. Your time is valuable and you are an asset to your career and the job you are being paid to do.

I don’t want to seem upset or mad, but I am a bit bothered by the way people have been treating me lately with those that I have and am currently working with professionally. As I am reflecting on what is currently going on in my life, I just notice that I have to make changes with how I allow others to treat me. Now, they may not know they are doing it or think it’s okay. Don’t allow others to dictate how business goes. Instead, business should be professional and respectful on BOTH parties. Working with other people can be fun and rewarding, but the way someone treats you or how their actions are toward you can put a sour taste in your mouth if it is rude of their actions.  Have fun, but be professional and assertive.

 

 

How Can I Carry The Weight Of The World With Just Two Hands?


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If you look closely the picture resembles someone who  make look exhausted. Well, this is how I have been feeling for a while with my life. As the new happens, reflection is still on my mind. When I think about last year and my past, I noticed it resolved around the needs of everyone else expect myself. Well, not this time, not for me. The world is filled with so many other problems, I have decided not to carry everyone else’s problems.

You maybe wondering, what am I talking about? Okay, here we go. 2017 is about me or just about you. If you make other people’s problems your own. Let me break down a few examples of what I am talking about. I will relay them to my life and things that have kept me stagnant by choice.

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  • Gossip: This is so easy to get involved in without even trying. As women or at least some women always want to know how others are doing. For example, if you have been out of high school and you hear the head cheerleader is now flipping burgers. Gossip is when someone is telling you someone else’s business just because. They are not out to help the person who is doing less than or struggling.
  • Money: This is a huge one for me. If you don’t have the means to help others, stop doing it when you don’t have. I am totally guilty of this. But, it’s a new year so I am done with that. People always try to take advantage of your kind heart. Well, if you are like I was, NO is your favorite word. I would help my parents and friends who were in financial trouble and when I did that, it left me in the hole. When it was time for me to need the help, the one was around.  Never again. Be smart, be wise. Give when you are able to. Make sure you are taken care of first. Now, you may loose friends and family over this, but that is okay. Don’t make it so easy for people to be able to come to you.
  • Favors: Favors can be asked of you from anyone by doing anything. This can be money, doing a job, performing a task, etc. This is another one that I have stopped doing. Why? Well, I am trying to continue to establish my writing career and I’m in school for my PhD. In a way, I don’t have time to do favors for people. It takes time on what I really need to be focused on. Don’t get me wrong, if it’s something minor or you choose to assist, go for it. I will give you an example, I have an uncle who lost his job and wanted help with a resume, etc. I wasn’t as busy that day so I gave him a price for me to re-do his resume, etc. You must be thinking, why would you charge your uncle? Easy, I am not working right now and writing is my livelihood until something better and bigger comes. So, I charged him $60. Now, what pissed me off was that he had the full amount that I was asking for when I saw him because he pulled the money out. Do you know he only gave me $20 and said he’d give me the rest next week? At this time my blood is boiling and I’m ready to cuss him out something serious, lol. But, I kept my cool and said okay. I finished the work and EVEN applied for jobs for him since he had no computer. He got e-mails and callback galore for jobs i applied for him on his behalf. That was about 6 months ago. I never got the rest of my money and when I called he ignored me and didn’t answer my calls. Til this day I have no wrap for him. My point is doing for people who will take advantage of you is the ultimate no no in my book. It can be family or friends. I don’t care. Once you do me dirty, I have no wrap for you.

No matter if your heart is huge or you are cold due to being burned many times, you can’t carry the world. Sure, you have the best intentions to help others, but sometimes you just can’t. Focus on yourself and when you can do, by all means go for it. But, when it comes to your sanity and at times your pockets, you must learn to say no. This goes for emotional and mental stability as well. I have sometimes would hear my friends or people I know talk about the drama in their life that when we were done talking it drained me. I was so busy focused on their issues that my life was having a back seat. Don’t let this be you. Be the best you that you can be. After all you come first. Put yourself there.

Was 2016 A Hit or Miss?


Man oh man!

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You know? This year has been a struggle, but I have learned so many lessons from it. There were more misses then hits, but that’s okay. This year has taught me so much about myself and what I deserve in life. In order to grow and move forward you must have to know where you have been to get to where you are going. That last sentence might sound like gibberish, but here me out. This year I have felt all over the place with no direction in all aspects of my life.

Writing

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For 2016, you would think that I was bi-polar when it came to my writing. I was so up and down about the craft. One minute I was enthused about finishing a project and then the next I made excuses for why I wasn’t writing. I had things to say like life got in the way, or I’m focusing on school or getting a job. Don’t get me wrong, these are somewhat valid reasons, but if writing is my life I need to make time to do everyday. However, I did participate in Nano and finished. This experience was a rewarding one because I never finished Nano. I even published the book!

Blogging

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Let’s face it. This blog took a major back seat this year. I feel so bad for it too. My YouTube channel was booming and I lost this blog. It is good to be back and have some perspective of what  want to do for 2017. I think it was hard to figure out what to blog about. I am not just a writer or student, but I also love to read as well. I will consider this my website more so than a blog even though I will still post. I want to sincerely apologize to all of my followers for my inconsistency.

 

Love

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Shall we even go there? Man, this area of my life is so misconstrued it’s not even funny, lol. You guys know that I have tried to have relationships and it was just not successful. The last guy was a fluke, just like the ones before him. I tried online dating and it is just unsuccessful for me at the time. There are two people that I know who have met their husbands on online dating sites. what I am finding is that I am not meeting real, mature men. The ones that I am meeting are very immature, some even slow and others just not what I want. When men become men, they should put a way all childish things. If you are over 30 years old and the first thing you want to do is come to a woman’s house and not even attempt to court her, GET YOUR LIFE.  I am so over it, lol. Yet, I have hope that the right man will come around sooner rather than later.

Reading

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I am so happy.  I read a lot this year and even completed my Goodreads reading challenge! My challenge had 30 books, but I surpassed that and read 50. There were so many new authors and books that I’ve read. Check it out.

 

School

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This battle is an ongoing one. Classes are going well and I am passing every one that I take.   However, I have hit my max with loans. What does that mean? It means that I have no money for school. I can qualify for a GradPlus loan, but there are somethings on my credit that need to be paid before I can do it. I still have hope because I am 4 classes away from starting my dissertation. I will finish!

No matter what happens next I will continue to give it my all. I will not give up and keep the faith because I know that God will prevail. He knows my heart and my desires. I look forward to what’s ahead. Bring it on 2017! I will not have more hits then misses in the new year.

Afraid to succeed and fail all at the same time with life and writing


Good morning readers! 

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I hope everyone is having a wonderful morning, thus far. This morning when I woke up, I finished reading a book called, ” Writing Down The Bones” by Natalie Goldberg. It’s a book about channeling yourself with your writing, doing writing exercises, and knowing your true voice as a writer. In some areas the book was dry, but I took the time to really read the words instead of it actually being good or bad. Natalie uses many examples of her writing and in her classes that she taught, her students were able to be vulnerable. Of course you have the awkward silence when you are around complete strangers and you have to introduce yourself to everyone. I often get anxiety about any form of public speaking, but hey, I still do it.

What surprised me was…

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when Natalie ended the book she stated that she went out for a glass of wine and 2 scoops of coffee ice-cream. She sat to herself and smiled that she completed a novel. The next morning she cried for hours. Then she called her father and said that she was jumping off of the Empire State Building. Her father said, ” Does it have to be that high?” What I liked that this writer was able to tell the readers her emotion based on a big accomplishment.

Then…

I wondered to myself, ” Wow. Did she really kill herself?” I don’t know the answer but Natalie did pass away I believe. This book was published in the 80’s and I didn’t see it then, but I do understand why my sorority sister gave it to me as a gift. Like all writers we are so up and down about our craft, life, etc. We want so badly to be secretly accepted that it’s not even funny. We don’t like the limelight, but through our words (if we sell well or our name is in the credits of that film) we are popular. People are able to see our work and actually like it. A writer can still be famous, without being in the limelight.  People are loving what you write, not who you are. Paparazzi won’t follow you, your life’s success’s and failure won’t be spread across magazine for the world to read. Your secrets, success’s and failures are all your own. Most people don’t care when you do either one. They just want that next book, article, or screenplay that’s SO good. Then I ask myself, ” Once I have written that best-seller or that award-winning screenplay, what’s next?” To go back to the drawing board and try again, just to be accepted into the elite social pool, yet again, just because of my name?”

Hmmm….

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Then it hit me. As I reflected on my life in general and as a writer, I realized why I hadn’t been working on my screenplay or novel. You see, I have really awesome days and really bad ones. Only a writer will understand this. I have been writing since I was 15 years old and when I became published in 2008, I was ecstatic! I sold tons of books, people loved it, and I made lots of money. But, then the hype was over. I was being pressured to write more books, which I did. I was expecting the same hype-ness that I had with my first book for my 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, and 8th. I didn’t get it. I didn’t get the sales to go along with anyone more, either. ” Have I lost my mojo?” Why aren’t people dying to buy my work as they were when the first book came out?” I will tell you why, ” You are only as good as your first writing.” It’s like a person trying a drug for the first time, they love the way it makes them feel. They feel free, calm, without a care in the world, they are so happy and feel on top. Once the high wares off, they have to buy more drugs in order to chase that same feeling that they had, the very first time they tried it. They never get that same exact first feeling. Instead, they feel good, but not great, then okay, but not good, then fine, but not ok. This is where an addict and addiction become unbearable. As a writer, we are still chasing that first high, so we write more books to feel as important as we did with our first novel. Shame on us for wanting to feel good about our efforts! How selfish of us, writers!

It hit me…

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I haven’t been writing because I have a block up. I’m afraid to both succeed and fail. Now, it doesn’t keep me from trying to succeed. I have 4 completed screenplays that I pitch often to producers, companies, etc. They aren’t being requested and again I’m being rejected. Since I’m having a ton of rejections, I feel, ” Why write new material if the old material is still new and no one will pick it up?” This is my current mindset. Is it right? Absolutely, not. But, it’s real and it’s my feelings. I am entitled to them no matter what anyone else thinks. So, it’s like, ” Oh well, I’m not writing.” The same with my novel that was suppose to be finished over a year ago, my TV pilot that I wrote, and my treatments to some shows that I wrote as well. I had to come to terms with my writing and my self.

Me: I hate writing knowing that I am being rejected by every Tom, Dick, and Harry that I reach out too. But, then as I finished the book this morning, I said to myself, ” Well, I haven’t pitched to Arnold, Billy Bob, or Frank, yet.” As writers we only need that one ” yes” and that’s all it takes. For the last couple of months, I didn’t think my work was worthy of a ” Yes” because no was in the mind of those other people. I’m changing my thought process. I will continue to write and continue to put myself out there, by putting my work out there. All I can keep doing is try. Sure, when I read every rejection I take my pillow and scream into it, maybe even shed a few tears, hey readers, I keep it real. There have been times when I just sobbed because life isn’t going the way I want it too. But, it’s life. There are ups, downs, sideways, and under-neath’s. But, even with all of that I manage to keep writing. Someway. Somehow. If I don’t work on my novel or screenplay, I write this blog, a Facebook post, a journal, a tweet, someone from my new school. All in all, I still write. No one can take that title away from me whether I publish something soon or not. Writing is what I will always do to express myself and tell other people’s stories.

Getting my PhD…

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When I got accepted into my PhD program, I was surprised. I was surprised that I got in, but it’s like everything fell into place. I was able to get all of the forms in and even my tax info ( I never know what it is). When I got the acceptance letter, I was so excited. Then my excitement turned to nausea, and then I cried. I cried for several reasons. I can actually achieve such a milestone as to getting accepted, I will be the only one of my immediate family with any degree let alone a PhD. I was also afraid, afraid to fail. But, I won’t fail because I’m determined to succeed. To prepare myself I started reading academic journals, networking with other PhD students, and reading up on dissertation topics. How exciting! I’m living proof that you can do what you put your mind too. That one “yes” of being accepted into this new venture is just the force that I needed. When you are afraid, ask yourself why, channel the fear, and turn it into a positive. Be excited of what’s next to come in your life instead fearing failure.

They say, ” A  journey of a thousand miles starts with just one single step!” Take the journey for what it is and when you get to the destination, enjoy it.

Question: Are you afraid to fail or succeed?