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Keep Writing

This is my current W.I.P that I have stopped working on. I’m feeling a little iffy about it and I want to know do you think I should continue or start over? Now, I was going to self-publish this book and I even have a cover made for it, but I’m thinking of going traditional with my works from now on. What are your thoughts? Please give me some kind of feedback below in the comments. Thanks.

Here are the first two chapters (unedited) …

Prelude

 

“ Angel! I can’t do this with you right now.” I yelled as he was driving through old Baltimore Pike.

“ Miracle, I told you that I was sorry. How many times are you going to continue to punish me?” He yelled back.

The snow was coming down hard and he was speeding. I was scared and my heart started to panic.

“ You had her pussy smell all over you!” I barked back.

“ Mamita, I don’t want us to get a divorce. I am going to get help.” He said.

“ Angel, you had the last time. Just tell me how many more did you fuck?”

“ Miracle, it was just the two times and that was it. I love you and I’m committed to you.” He retorted.

“ How are you committed to me when you fucking cheated twice. We aren’t in high school anymore, Angel.”

I started to cry.

He hated when I cried.

We stopped at a red light and I looked out the window at the Christmas lights. Christtmas was my favorite holiday of the year.

“ Look. I love you. We are not getting divorced. This marriage is going to work and it’s going to last. We had vows, Miracle.”

“ Vows that you broke. Just tell me why? Is it because I work so much?”

“ No. Baby.”

He sighed.

“ She came on to me in the office. I told her I was happily married. We had the Christmas party last year and both were too drunk to drive. She kissed me. I called her Miracle and she played along with it.”

Tears started to roll my down my eyes even harder.

“ Since you were drunk the first time, how the fuck did it happen again?”

This go round I was furious. I wanted to grab the wheel and make him feel the same pain that I am, but I couldn’t kill us.

“ Miracle. Please calm down. I don’t want your asthma to act up.” He said trying to hold my hand.

“ Fuck you and your damn asthma.” I yelled.

“ Please stop crying.” He said as tears started to stream down his eyes.

“ We don’t need this shit.” I said.

“ Who the fuck is we?”

Cars started to pile up behind us and were blowing the horn.

“ Angel, I’m pregnant!”

Before I could say anything he stared at me and his foot hit the gas on the car.

“ Angel, look out!” I screamed.

I could hear the crash, but after that it all went black.

 

 

Chapter 1

 I remember it like it was yesterday. He was the one that I saw first before anyone else. Nervous, I didn’t know what to expect. Here I was at a new school from a different state and have to make new friends. My father worked a lot and we moved a lot due to his work. I will miss my friends in Charlotte, North Carolina. I didn’t have to courage to open the door. I stood their awkwardly still looking at him. The halls were quiet, no one was around and I could hear my own thoughts.   I looked at myself to make sure that I looked decent. I had on a red shirt that showed my mid drift and belly, blue jeans with red and blue Jordan’s. I loved to dress and my hair was cut short in a bob. My smooth chocolate skin accented my outfit nicely. Being in Wilmington, Delaware seems to be a little different from down south. Everyone was fast, which I used to. I was born and raised in New York until my dad started to move for work as stockbroker.

Slowly, I turned the knob. He looked at me. In fact everyone looked at me, including the teacher. I gave her my slip that shows I belong in her classroom.

“ Okay class. Please welcome Miracle Stewart.” She said.

She continued to glance at my slip.

“ My name is Mrs. Baxter.” She said with a slight smile.

Mrs. Baxter was an older woman with dread locks. She had light skin and great pant suit that I could not help but to adore.

“ Miracle, please have a seat anywhere.” She said.

I glanced up around the room and saw him still staring at me. I slowly blinked my eyes. I knew he was attracted to me. The feeling was definitely mutual. One thing about me I am not shy, so I knew what I was doing when I sat beside him.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Book Review: Every Little Step by Bobby Brown


Every Little Step

Title: Every Little Step

Author: Bobby Brown

My Rating: 5 stars

My Review:

I must say that I was on the band wagon late when this book came out. Being a Bobby Brown fan, I was so excited to finally hear his truth from over the years. Being accused of having one the most famous women on drugs could take a toll on a person. Bobby Brown never got slack for his late wife Whitney Houston’s drug use. It was sad and upsetting for me when I read his story. Someone as talented as he was/is to have a hard life growing up into his adult years. I won’t give any spoilers on this book, but I will say that I am glad that Bobby is happy in his life. Aside from loosing his daughter Bobby Kristina (and even loosing Whitney), I am glad that he was able to continue to move on with his life.

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Book Review: The Hate You Give by Angie Thomas (Spoilers)


The Hate You Give

Title: The Hate You Give

Author: Angie Thomas

My Rating: 4 stars

My Review:

This book was a buddy read that I did with one of my subscribers on my YouTube channel, ” Krystol the book worm”.  I will say that this book was hyped up which made me go out and purchase it. I REALLY enjoyed reading with this my friend Janay, but it was hard to read. I wish this story was based on fiction alone instead of real life incidents. The book is about a high school girl named Starr who live in the ” hood” or a bad area in an urban community. She goes to a private school where she and another student are the only black ones there. Starr witnesses two deaths in her life where her friends are killed, one by a cop and one with a stray bullet. I didn’t cry while reading this book, but it did make me upset. I won’t get into any racial debates on my blog, but the book is based on racial profiling by an unarmed African American boy and a Caucasian officer. The situation was sad all way around, but Starr was very brave and she pressed on as best as she could.

In this book, I wanted to see the officer get justice instead of a slap on the wrist. The book does not entail what happened to the officer, just that he would not be charged for the crime. It makes me wonder what other races who are not African American thought about the book and overall story.

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My Current Read


I stared to read this book a couple days ago. Now, I am a slow reader, but I am still reading so I feel good about that. This book is one that is said to be, ” a playful book that will remind you to live life to the fullest.” This is just what I need because I have been very down lately with not having a job and figuring out what I want to do with my life. I feel like I’ve been skating by. Anyway, check out my current read. If you’ve read it let me know how you liked it.

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What’s My Passion?


Friday Reading

Happy Friday readers! I know it’s been forever, but I at least hope that you are in good spirits. There was something on my mind and I wanted to talk my friends ( the readers) about it. I need some advice if you will or just someone to hear me out. Today, I was talking to one of my friends about what my passion is. She asked me, ” what would make you successful and what does it mean to you?” The answer that I gave was I don’t know. I am passionate about a lot of things whether it’s reading, writing, doing research, or even being a student in school. I get these ideas for books and different ways to make money and once it’s not successful or a ” quick fix” I give up. Why is that? Oftentimes I go to the next thing and then fail at that too. I ask myself, ” why am I unable to have consistency with what I want to do in my life?” My focus is on many things instead of one thing.

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Has that ever  happened to you? If so, how did you find your niche and your way to happiness? This got me thinking about the film, ” The Pursuit of Happyness” starting Will Smith. Will play a father to young boy who lost his way in life with a job. His wife left him with his son and he even went homeless trying to make ends meet. He ended up signing up for a stock broker program and did very well that he became rich. It’s such a passionate story that it even brings me to tears just writing about it. What’s the happiness in my life that I’m trying to pursue? I have a Youtube channel that I enjoy posting videos and I am a writer. Or am I? I haven’t worked on anything in about a month simply because Im trying to get a quick fix of making money since I’m not working. For me, it’s hard to understand the value of yourself if you don’t know what’s valuable. Am I talented? Yes! But, what do I do with the talents that I have? I’m great at writing stories and coming up with things, but once rejection hits, it’s like I shut down. Ghandi said, ” Be the change you want to see in the world”, well, I want to make a difference, but how I am able to if I can’t focus on something long enough to not only see it through, but it continue to try even when its not the quick fix.

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My Current Read


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Happy Saturday! I have been reading this one book very slowly. I’m excited and nervous to see how it will end. Does that ever happen to you? It’s not that the book is slow, it’s just that it’s good you literally want to take your time with reading it. Im also listening to a book on audiobook as well and it’s a good-slow read for me as well. What are you currently reading? Do you will think you will finish by this weekend?

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This what I’m currently listening to on audible and I MUST say, I hope she finds her brother Darin.

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This is what I’m currently reading as a physical book. I am wondering what the two girls will do once they meet again after about 17 years.

My new buys!

Every Little Step

I’m a HUGE BB fan and NE fan. I am intrigued to see what his side of the story will bring.

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This book is VERY popular on book tube and in the world right now. I look forward to reading it soon. Have you read this one?

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Book Review: Opal by Jennifer L. Armentrout


Consequences

Title: Lux Consequences ( Opal)

Author: Jennifer L. Armentrout

Pages: 395

My Copy: Paperback Bind Up of 2 Books

My Rating: 4 Stars

My Review:

I am really enjoying this series very much! Katy, a girl who moved to Virginia with her mother after the death of father tries to make friend. After seeing her neighbor who is just the most cutest and arrogant, Katy develops a crush and a new friend, Dee. Damien is the boy she wants to know more about even though he’s a real jerk. Katy notices something different about Dee and Damien that she just can’t put her finger on until its too late. I won’t give out any spoilers because this book is a series. I highly recommend this series to everyone!!

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Jobs For Writers


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Being a writer is hard work. There are many people will believe in your gift, and others will laugh in your face. I’m sure writers like Stephen King and J. K. Rowling were laughed at, but look at them now! I would LOVE to be on their level one day and even write for Huffington Post or a great company like it. Speaking of writing for a living, I have been applying to several writing jobs.  Now, I’ve worked as a writer before, but I am looking to do so on a full-time basis. If you read my plea for wanting a career as a writer, I was speaking for us all when I said we wanted to make it through our words. There are many jobs out there that writers can do. To name a few:

  • Content Writer
  • Staff Writer
  • Freelance Writer
  • Creative Writer
  • Fiction Writer
  • Screenwriter
  • TV Writer
  • Contributing Writer
  • Blog Writer
  • Journalist
  • Copywriter
  • Technical Writer

These are jobs that I have applied for in various companies. Let’s hope one of these turns out to be a winner. But, if not, I am still writing. My suggestion would be to ALWAYS write. The more you write, the better you will be become in your craft. But, there is one thing a writer should always do as well. That is to:

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A great writer is also a great reader. I LOVE to read as you know if you’ve been seeing my  Goodreads page, and book reviews. I watched a few interviews with Stephen King and he said that he reads all the time. It helps strengthen his writing.

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Writing is already a job within itself, but sometimes we have to get day jobs, too. I used to work full-time, go to school and STILL would write before I went to bed. Lately, I have been writing a lot of samples for the writing jobs that I have been applying for. My point is that writing should always be precedent if it’s something you plan on doing for the rest of your life. As for myself I want to be like Stephen King and just write for a living. In time I have no doubt that it won’t happen. I am going to re-read On Writing by Stephen King just to get inspiration to keep going. This journey can be a lonely road, but I will not stop climbing. If you want a writing job and to continue your own projects, keep striving. Don’t let or allow anyone to tell you differently.

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Editing 101


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This is the area that I lack the most. At first I used to think that editing was just spell check on Microsoft Word and that was it. Then I realized it was so much more than that. Granted, I have been writing for a very long time, but my mind was not on editing. I just wanted people to really understand my story of what I was trying to say. Who cared that I didn’t put a comma in the right place? I can remember in high school my English teacher would give us a sheet that had ” common mistakes” on it which did not help because  I still needed work on my papers.  I have a come a long way, but I still lack editing. When something needs a fresh pair of eyes I send it to one of my friends and have them look it over. Here are some things that will help the process of editing.

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  1. Proofread – Always have your work proofread. I know we as writers think our writing is perfect,  but it is good to go over every piece of writing with a fine tooth comb.
  2. YouTube Videos – Call me crazy, but this really helps! I have watched many videos on how to edit. It may seem redundant or tedious, but it has helped me.
  3. Books – Books that focus on editing can help a ton as well. In fact I am about to read a few because I still need all the help that I can get.  Here are a few
    1. On Writing by Stephen King
    2. 100 ways To Improve Your Writing by Gary Provost
    3. The Manual for Writers by Kate L. Turbian (Eighth Edition)
    4. Line by Line by Claire Kehrwald Cook

There are some of the books that I will be reading as well. My goal is to write for a living so I have to make sure that my editing is tight! When you edit what style works for you?

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Dream Deferred


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At times in life, our life shifts into different directions that are out of our control. Today I experienced a shift that totally not only knocked me off my feet, but again the wall so hard that I can’t move. Trying to find a job in the writing and research field is hard enough ( hell, a job period), but finding out that you can no longer get the education to continue to try to be on the way of success is a hard blow. I found out that I can’t finish pursuing my PhD. On this blog, I like to keep it real with my readers and give it to you straight no chaser. I know that set backs and things happen. I also know that it’s not the end of the world and I will be able to finish, but right now, in this moment, I feel like someone has taken my air supply for me to breathe. Due to financial reasons, I am unable to finish school at the moment. I know that many have been where I am, and even more have experienced this same situation, but this is my current reality. The reality that I feel like I’ve failed. Parents raise their children to follow the directions, law and get a good education. I have done all of that and yet it seems like it was for nothing. Being a PhD student has taught me a lot about myself and to endure patience in the inevitable. Even though I only have 3 classes until I start writing my dissertation, I guess patience is something I still have to endure before I am able to go back to school. Ah, the irony!

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Not working in a field or job that is tolerable is the worst kind of agony that I don’t wish on anymore. At first it’s like, ” Okay, I’m going to be fine. I have a savings that will hold me for a while.” Then it turns to, ” Holy shit! I’m out of money, what am I going to do?” The unthinkable of not wanting to feel even more like a failure or lame you turn to those parents who taught you how to make it on your own and tell them not only have you failed, but school is deferred. It’s something like a hard blow to the head on the way down to the floor. Now, I’ve never been hit in the head, but I can imagine the pain that comes with it. I know some of you may be thinking, ” It’s not the end of the world, you will go back when you get the funds.” I hope that does happen. Its just an initial shock. I’m still struggling to find work and I’m no longer in school. I have to take a leave of absence for a while just until things change.

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This is currently how I’m feeling. Determine what the next step is for my life, if there is a next step to take. Im doing all I can by applying for jobs everywhere on a daily basis. My dream of successful writer is still in the works because I am writing or at least I will be. I opened up a manuscript that I had started and read it. It’s a love story and yet I just keep staring at the chapter 3 mark. We will not even go there in the relationship department. Granted, I want to be happy and have a successful relationship that will lead to marriage, but right now I don’t know if I’m coming or going. I just keep asking myself, ” Why do good people get the shittiest hands in life?” I understand the concept of life happening and things are never perfect, but it’s like every time you turn around it’s always something. Well, I think I’m done turning. What can happen if I stand still? Oh yea, nothing, lol. At least if I’m turning, I’m moving, right? Prayer has been my best friend and my journal has been my right hand. In due time I will have a good job and school will resume. The dream is not put off, it’s just a dream deferred.